Resolution, and Moody

Hmm.. tahun br ni start sm je kot. aku xbrapa faham nape orang sibuk2 nak buat azam kalo sampai Mei dia dah lupa pun apa azam tu.... i mean, let's hope everything better this year je la kot.

not that i don't have sebarang target, ada je. first and foremost, nak dapat duet, pastu nak makan supaya dapat lalui satu hari tanpa lapar. =p! tp target aku lagi simple kot. nak keje stabil by d end of dis month. pastu xsabar2 nak tengok pmpuan kt tmpat keje aku yang sangat annoying ni g tmpat laen. hahahahaha....

my bestfren sedikit moody hari ni. wif no reason.. cam xpaham sket. mengapakah? aku je ek dlm dunia ni yang bangun and smile? ntah la. i always said. when you're life in shit this deep, the only way is up. (well, ada movie laen dulu cakap, aku curik je. hahaha...)

adakah aku ptut bersedih? kecewa? trasa? jauh d sudut ht aku tau jwpnnya yes.. but not again. haha.. not now. kang ble smpai masa aku nangis kang, biar aku nangis pepuas.

btw, happy new year!

p/s. talking bout 2011 kn, take a look at this 2011 bmw 1 series... meleleh dowh...

Photoshop: Pen tool

Today, i'm gonna tell you about smtg a lot of ppl dont know. I was categorized in this kind of people until only lately. All this while, when using photshop, if i want to make a selection, i marquee tool right? If im lazy then the magic wand tool can select for me. If i'm kinda extra hardworking, i'll use lasso tool. I'll just follow the lines the best that i could, but i wont ever looks like professional's.

Y? Because Professional Use Pen tool. Yes, The thingy that looks like a pen but nobody tells you how to use it.

being me

I'm not dat naive.
i'm more than a bird
i'm more than a plane
wish dat i cud cry
even heroes hv d rite 2 bleed
i'm only a man
looking for special things
inside of me
and it's not easy to be me...

lemme tell u a story..

once upon a time. there was tis man.

he has two jobs. he's doing it bcoz it's d only thing he knew. during d day, he's a clown. never has he failed to cheer ppl, make ppl laugh.

nighttime, he's a bat, being active yet remain hidden, afraid of human..

u see, it's not ez being a clown. u can nvr show ur tru color in front of ppl. ppl will x b heppy. n they'll left d clown. so d clown wear a mask so thick, so often changing, dat smtime he'll 4get about hisself. forget what he want, what he's like. he'll talk bout wut ppl wanna hear till d clown bcome one wif the crowd. he'll even shape hisself accordg to the crowd demand...

u see, d gud thing of being him, when all shits smacked u in d face, when d problems piling up, when u're life in shit so deep, uve got nowhre to go but up rite? it cud nvr possibly go any worse rite. so he's facing each n everyday wif a smile.

ello again, world..

Yeah. I'm wierd. Probably d umpteenth time u've heard of dat be4 rite? hahaha... But really, I'm weird.

Not d kinda of weird like dis guy here, i'm straight as an arrow..... im pretty sure. but weird. dat guy is waaaaay to weird... kamon la.. admitting u're gay, a muslim in Malaysia? r u crazy or wut? u're gay n u're screwed. LITERALLY, K!

ppl told me b4 i'm weird so its not some self-proclaimed statement okay? ahakz. anyhow, 'naff wif d weird stuff aiite?

i'm gonna write novel style. d longer u read, d more u gonna find out. n i wont say u'll b plezz either. ngeh3..

gEJaLa BuAnG BAyi.. mY tw0 cEntS..

Nowadays, macam almost everyday kte dgr kes buang bayi kan. especially mcm nak buat buang bayi tu jatuhkn hukuman maut.. so this is my two cents:

macam hukuman maut tu..... xde kena mengena... y do i say so? let's take a step back...

some months back, i wrote a letter to berita harian that says schools shud really stop hiding crimes and misdeeds done by their student and start utk kerjasama dgn polis n masyarakat utk improve belia. tp of course la, sume org pn nk jaga bulu masing2 kn.. sape nk bgtau kt skolah dia ada 2 budak pregnant dlm ms setahun n dll kan.. but this has to stop, really...

rasenye mcm sume ni start kt skolah.. i mean, tbh, bpe rmai sgt parent yg brani nk ckp kt anak2 dia psl different sex? isu ni still taboo la pd parent, so the responsibility grudgingly jatuh kt bahu para guru la.. besides, budak laki starts usha budak pmpuan kt skolah (menengah) n budak pmpuan start minat budak laki kacak kt skolah (rendah) gak.. so nak xnk cekgu2 yg dihormati perlu la terangkn laki sume penipu, jgn pecaya dorg, n pmpuan akan brubah tp perlu sentiasa, sentiasa di hormati n dijaga.. (maybe not the phrasing i used above la. haha)

i always has been a believer of Mahathir. one of his best idea to be was look east policy. although historian mgkin bising kata polisi ni dibuatnya sbb britain kerek dgn timah malaysia time tu, tapi still.... its a gud point.. btw, in looking east, satu point yg kte slu tgk ble tgk cite korea or jepun, xkire dari cite bodo n lucu mcm GTO smpi la drama yg nangez2 tu, kte perhatikn cekgu dia rapat dgn student kn.. kalo xdtg, cekgu dia tepon tnya.. siap ada yearly or biannual visit g datang umah lagi..

kte kt sini, parent (kdg2 bese je parent xpnah dtg pn, anta pnjaga or abg kakak) g skolah setahun skali tnya cekgu anak dia blaja cmna.. cekgu bc report kad, kalo budak tu rajen tnyan jwb soklan dia puji, kalo jenis nakal (mcm aku =p) kena tegur. xde pn cekgu nk ckp budak ni minat dia kt sini, mgkin better kalo digalakkan dia buat cmni cmtu.. or budak ni xde konfiden, mgkin bgus kalo parent puji dia slalu kt umah even bnda simple2 mcm sikat rmbut kemas2 or basuh pggan pas mkn mgkin bule build dia pnya self konfidence... or smtg like dat.. xde pn..

i also recognized yg cekgu Malaysia ni maha la bizinya... rasa PM pn ntah2 xbizi mcm cekgu. nk tnda kertas, nk layan nazir lagi, cekgu disiplin kena bt n jaga rekod disiplin n kejar budak jahat 1 skolah. cekgu sukan plak, bola ke, netball, tenis, or mcm tarian ke, drama, pertandingan kuiz ke hapa, kena prepare budak2 tu utk sume tu lagi, siap kdg2 kena anta sndri plak tu. mcm da xde keje jd cekgu, kena jd driver skali. n pd ms tu of course la budak2 kelas terabai n xde cikgu masuk (yahuuu!!!) except cekgu gantian kalo ada...

lagipun, a VERY big blame shud be placed on the mentaliti of parent skrg.. mcm dorg ada ideologi bodoh yg mngatakn cikgu jg anak kt skolah je, kt umah pndai2 la aku jaga. mslahnya ko xpndai nk jaga.. kalo ditegur kang mrh, trase.. anak pukul budak lain, kena pukul balik, melenting mcm hape. ko xtau setannya anak ko tu kt skolah.. ccet..

baru2 ni ada kes budak mngaku slh buang anak kn? tau bape tahun bdak2 tu? laki tu 18 n pmpuan tu 17.. buat la kira2 sndri, skrg bulan 8. mknanya budak tu da pregnant dr dia awal form 4 lagi.. mungkinkh dia skolah cekgu2 buta yg xsedar dia pregnant? or bile dia ponteng berminggu2 or muntah kt skolah cikgu buat bodo?

i have a very strong (and NOT unreasonable) feeling yang laki dia tu boypren dari kt skolah yg sama lagi.. see? see? sume skolah je dari tadi.. haha.. of course la, tu mmg point aku.. hahaha..

mcm xlama pas surat ku dipublished berita harian, ada brita psl placur budak skolah kt mlaka n polis nk pggil cekgu2 skolah tu utk ambik kterangan. kan da kata? xkan la budak2 placur tu budak dpt straight A kan? tak mustahil sgt je, tp mcm pelik la.. again, xkn la cekgu dia xsaspicious...? rabun kah?

mungkin ke bdak laki tu budak rempit yg mmg notoriously known mmg kuat seks bebas ni? mungkin je.. tp kita xtau kan? mungkin dan mungkin.. kita tak betul2 tau.. kita sibuk sangat nak hukum satu pesalah ni ke satu pesalah next. tp tak plak kte pergi dekati pesalah tu n ambik tau latar blakg dia.. kenapa dia bule terjebak sejauh tu?

alangkah baiknya kalo at 1 stage of his life, ada sum1 intervene and betulkn dia n dia xbuat salah yg akan hantui hidup dia tu?

as a conclusion.. (sbb kakak aku da balik.. lari! xmasak lagi!!) mcm skolah mainkn pranan yang amat, amat penting.. kita sume mcm terlalu jauh dgn skolah.. mcm skolah tu satu entiti berbeza xleh cmpur dgn idup budak.. salah ah.. pndidikan ttg opposite sex patut start kt skolah, bukan ssmata2 ttg beza morfologi dorg je, tp gak personaliti putar laki n demanding pmpuan.. ajar slh zina tu skuat2nya, (tp bukan dengan ganasnya mengajar) n slh lg buang bayi tu.. sekiaaaannn...